The World Through My Lens

Blues from a Black Hole

Tonight may be the night

Tomorrow might just be a little different

We might be different people

Walking different paths

Old memories aglow

Ancient emotions revived

Your name for me rings in my ear

And I spare you a tear

But you shall be at bliss

Playing with the stars

Riding the colours of the rainbow

Me..Filthy me shall remain in the muddy world

Bloody world

Breathing the carcinogenic air

Remember the dreams we dreamt?

The silken world we knitted?

Now what of them

For I know,

Dreams I can dream again

My world can be made again

But they can never be the same

Because even though we may be forever apart,

The song you sung still plays in my heart.

I Simply Cant Be......

It had been pouring for two days 
Nothing seemed wetter than the earth 
But was I relieved? 
Was the sense of living seized from my soul? 
Sparks of Heaven’s energy split the heart of the sky open 
What is going on? 
Is it a day to day calamity or am I feeling too philosophical? 
Whatever it is, it certainly is not good. 
No idea as to where I’m going. 
No sense of what I’m doing. 
A feel of ignorance 
Of incomplete realization. 
The pang of being left out… 
Why does it have to affect me? 
My mates..they were supposed to call me 
Was I not the one who proposed the idea? 
Even my mom, 
She would not look at me but simply weep 
To ask my dad when I went he 
Looked busy 
Did not hear me..! 
The reason for me being out on a night like this! 
Driving along the highway I have reached my home… 
But what is that? 
My car…still parked on the lawn? 
What was I driving then? 
I wasn’t even drunk! 
I ran towards my house 
The glass door refused to reflect me 
I… I am awake for sure 
Or am I sleeping forever? 
My mom’s in the kitchen 
Didn’t respond to the doorbell 
There’s blossom on the floor 
A picture of mine never before had been 
Hung with the Gods… 
What were they playing at? 
Whatever it is I’m not in the game… 
Not in the game 
And then like a ball of fire being forced 
Into the black hole 
I enlightened 
I had not opened the door of the car… 
I ran through 
And the same with the door… 
I certainly can’t be… 

Martyr ?

As I sear across the scarred path
Dried leaves part my way
The equilibrium of Heaven
And Hell has been altered. 
It is a time for war,
Time for unjustified principles to take place
In its raw and naked state
Justice.
No Goddamn word exists anymore
Another scream. Someone’s sure enjoying this.
What can any man do? But yet,
Gut feeling doesn’t permit me to rest.
Incandescent waves of love and lust encircle dignity.
Faith.Its like electricity.
You can't see it, but you know when it hits you.
Some parasite has surely taken abode in my skull today
Or else I wouldn’t be acting thus..
But what if?
No. Too soon. Although inevitable, too soon.
My flesh is threadbare and bones oxidized
But why? Why am I fighting this war on my own?
Where are ‘Others’?
The dignified and glorified Others?
Then I realize, like a spark of fire from
A matchstick that is going to be thrown;
They need me. I can’t waste myself.
So I turn, this war’s not mine.
And a blow! Straight on my face.
Blow after blow. It’s not stopping.
Please stop. Don’t kill me. I don’t wanna fight.
Who am I talking to?
I rise. I penetrate. I kill. I win.
But Hell conquers…… 

Gunpoint Confessions

As I sit down with my gun and pills 
And start to write this down- 
Like a flash, my life 
Rushes across my eyes 
I choose the best chapter and 
There you are, standing in the hallway 
With your pretty face competing with the 
Pretty lilies you held. 
Your half-smile made my heart 
Thump against my ribs 
My heart strings yearned to play 
A ballad. 
And I told myself 
‘Like a bridge over troubled water 
I’m gonna ease your life!’ 
The times we spent, 
Hand in hand 
Promises that we made 
All felt like walls concrete 
The smell of your hair 
The stars in your eyes 
Lying down with my head on your lap 
I dared to dream and 
I told you, 
Darling, 
‘Like a bridge over troubled water 
I’m gonna ease your life!’ 
You told me not to go this way 
But I chose to defy 
You told me to go right 
But I went left 
You made me swear on you 
That I wont touch my gun again 
I’m sorry Sweetheart… 
I give up. I’ve let you down again 
I learnt to play the game 
To predict the aces from the look of their eyes 
To not count my coins 
But to do so when the deal is done. 
I waited too long for the gamble my love, 
So long that I’m writing this 
At gunpoint. 
But I still say 
‘Like a bridge over troubled water 
I’m gonna ease your life!’ 
And now that you know 
It was me who let you down 
Hope you forgive me Love, 
Let me fly, soar high 
Away from the clutch of the world 
Wish that I see you in heaven 
If I ever reach there 
Then we shall spin silken dreams 
Again. And velvety hopes shall 
Know no bounds. 
No limits. 
But this time, You promise that, 
‘Like a bridge over troubled water 
You’re gonna ease my life!’