Gunpoint Confessions

As I sit down with my gun and pills 
And start to write this down- 
Like a flash, my life 
Rushes across my eyes 
I choose the best chapter and 
There you are, standing in the hallway 
With your pretty face competing with the 
Pretty lilies you held. 
Your half-smile made my heart 
Thump against my ribs 
My heart strings yearned to play 
A ballad. 
And I told myself 
‘Like a bridge over troubled water 
I’m gonna ease your life!’ 
The times we spent, 
Hand in hand 
Promises that we made 
All felt like walls concrete 
The smell of your hair 
The stars in your eyes 
Lying down with my head on your lap 
I dared to dream and 
I told you, 
Darling, 
‘Like a bridge over troubled water 
I’m gonna ease your life!’ 
You told me not to go this way 
But I chose to defy 
You told me to go right 
But I went left 
You made me swear on you 
That I wont touch my gun again 
I’m sorry Sweetheart… 
I give up. I’ve let you down again 
I learnt to play the game 
To predict the aces from the look of their eyes 
To not count my coins 
But to do so when the deal is done. 
I waited too long for the gamble my love, 
So long that I’m writing this 
At gunpoint. 
But I still say 
‘Like a bridge over troubled water 
I’m gonna ease your life!’ 
And now that you know 
It was me who let you down 
Hope you forgive me Love, 
Let me fly, soar high 
Away from the clutch of the world 
Wish that I see you in heaven 
If I ever reach there 
Then we shall spin silken dreams 
Again. And velvety hopes shall 
Know no bounds. 
No limits. 
But this time, You promise that, 
‘Like a bridge over troubled water 
You’re gonna ease my life!’